Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Ungrateful brat!

I think she is miserable inside. The misery is eating her up, poking holes in her soul. Misery loves company. She's probably bitter she can't bring others down with her. An ugly person, that's what she is, inside and out. Ungrateful, disrespectful and ungraceful. It's ok if you dont have much, it's ok if you don't know much, it's even ok if you can't offer much. But it is absolutely disgusting when you think you don't have enough, while in fact you've been handed so much. The world doesn't own her a thing, on the contrary, she owns others enough. Some people are just never receptive to anything but physical violence. "You've just have to beat the fear into her".

The bottom line is, i know where you sleep...


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T4 Free


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YES! I finally got the right hormones tested today. My doctor for the physical yesterday was not an expert in Thyroid problem i guess. More surprisingly, my shrink is! So i got more blood drawn for testing T3 and T4 free today. So i guess we'll see in a few days. In the meanwhile i still just want to sleep for 20 hours a day! Missed my 2 morning class again!!!!

Grrrr... work piling up, and i am just sleeping non stop. It's getting very annoying now. Masel class at 3, should i go or not??? um... I better.

It's been a while

Mmmmm.... the last entry was back in aug. when i first moved into my glorious new apt. Time flies on by like nothin! Now it's already December, well darn close anyway. The semester is almost over. Not much new happened really in the past 4 months.

I go to class most of the times, sleep excessively when i get the chance, trying my hardest to actually doing the homeworks and get them turned in. I just realized, maybe that is something new for my college career. I'm actually trying to fulfill my student's duty for once! One more semester to go before i can be rid of schooling for a while. "the uncertain future awaits!... " Blah blah blah I'm not that excited actually, days gone by, years gone by, i'm just glad i'm still standing. And honestly, i don't even want to go to my own graduation ceremony if it's not for my mommy. Just kinda want to get that one pass by unnoticed as well. Family, friends, they are great and all, but being scrutinized for the big dumb question "what are you doing after graduation?" Grrrr... if you say "Oh i don't know" then they'll have this pitiful look on their faces, "aw... you poor thing, your future is going down the drain", or they'll just have this blank face, like they totally did not expect you to say that, "darn it, now i don't know what to say, or how to change the topic, cause the poor kid ain't got a clue when he/she is supposed to have his/her 5 year plan all figured out !"

Whatever, lady/man, things will work out, for better or worse, they always do. You probably are just looking for some nosy gossip material to talk about with your next friend anyways. So i'd be kind and give it to you - I am a senior in cheme who does not know what is going to happen after i graduate. and NO i am NOT worrying sick over it. And YES, i might not even end up using my degree. but DON'T you worry about me, or even try to put me down, cause (1) you can't, and (2) you will be talking about how good i have it soon and just be so jealous that you can burst into bubbles :)

I trimmed my hair today, it wasn't superbly done. but i guess it's tidied up a bit now. I have bangs again, sorta. They are long enough that i can clip it if i choose to. I am just happy i got rid of most of the split ends on the bottom.

Got my physicals today, had some blood work done, everything seems fine right now. Robert had me check out my thyroid, trying to find a cause for all this hair thinning for the past 6 months, and the excessive sleepiness. There got to be something, hair don't just start palling out. But it's really discouraging, cause from what we've been reading, it seems like 8 out of 10 doctors don't know how to correctly diagnose Thyroid problems. The blood work in order isn't really for the right indicators i wanted either, cause the mckinley doctors are just useless bubble gummer sometimes!

Oh well... no control or stat hw this week. so Horray for that. Jane jane and I have finished our Kinetics hw, so that's good. So now, i need to start work on my lab report, and study for 2 quizes next monday!

chao, now.

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