My man

My Lover Boy

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My Ex's in Texas

High School Sweethearts

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High School Goof Offs

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同学

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最近不知怎么了，有好多老朋友跑出来。也有强烈的欲望，想留住很多好像要飞走的友情和亲情。可能是因为快毕业了八，老人的心情又跑出来了。
昨天给小表妹写了一封信，有好多歉意。很讨厌哪种欠别人什么的心情，那才叫郁闷。想想，真得很久没有努力的联系大家了。应该过得都好吧。。。就算不好也帮不了什么，大家都熬着吧，会有出头之日的
早 上考完西方史，一个头遍两个大，出发之前看到一个老同学的留言，一天心情都不错。嗯，人应该都是喜欢被记得的吧，所以作为群体中的一员也是有义务和责任让 被人知道--他/她是被记着的，没有被时间和人群埋没，也没有白白到这个世界来一趟， 他/她的存在有人不停的证明着。
从这个角度想，我真的是一个很差的人。

Simple is better

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I really want to write this down before I forgot, although I am supposed to be reading about the great western civilization. But oh well.
I was telling somebody the other day that I think my life would be so much simpler and happier if I base my life on what I need than what I want. I thought of this because my mother was asking me what I want her to buy for me from china. And I said a whole bunch of things, like a Christmas list... but then when were discussing each item, I realized I really didn't need any of them except maybe one or two. Then why the heck do I want it? "um.. It would be nice to have" I thought. But it's so much hassle, because all these things would suck out time out of my already well packed day and nights. no matter is it a gadget or a game or whatever... for entertainment or other purposes... to think how much simpler my life would be without my phone or internet, or the computer... I definitely used to sleep more, play more outside and talk to people more. All the new stuff are just gonna take up all my time initially and then end up sitting in a corner in my closet or a drawer somewhere waiting to be given away or thrown out because I really don't need it, and never get around in using it anyways. Back to the conversation with my mom, so I shot down all the things myself and just stop myself from there. And I have definitely noticed it saved me lots of energy. Excitement and anticipation are energy consuming as well. It really is just one thing I don't have to pay any attention to at all... it's a liberating feeling, really.

What Yanan Kong Means

Y is for Young A is for Abstract N is for Nerdy A is for Animated N is for Naive K is for Keen O is for Optimistic N is for Nice G is for Glorious

What Does Your Name Mean?

14 yrs old mom

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i'm watching this Japaneses soap called "14 yrs old mother"... obviously it's about a middle school girl got pregnant when she was 14. It was quite funny in a wicked way at first. For instance, there is a scene where she and her "love" interest held hand for the first time and hugged each other, the next scene was 2 months later she discovered that she was pregnant from this incident ... I was shocked. "did i miss something in between?" i kept rewinding and see if i have missed about 10 min of the show or something. It is amazing how american tv had affected my tv logic... because in a regular American teen show, they will show kissing, making out, stripping off their clothes, actually having sex (for the more graphic shows) and then maybe, the girl will be pregnant. But it's more about just casual sex where the consequences are not considered or ever bothered to worry about.

A good friend asked me is it because Americans just plain have "bad" values. "no, i don't think so" i told her... it's just different. The same reason why saying no is rude to Japanese people, but not in the rest of the world. People form their values and their worldly views under quite different circumstances. there are just too many complicated reasons and a long long process how we end up the way we are today.So back to the soap opera... (spoiler warning) She decided to have the baby. And of course, being 14 , it takes such a toll on her under developed body. She nearly died... i'm not sure how it ended yet, cause i'm not there yet.

But in the spirit of pregnancy - a life is a miracle in itself. I still remember when i was little, my aunt asked me and two other cousins of mine that if we want to have babies when we grow up. "nope, i'll play with my friends' or neighbors' kids. but i'm not gonna put up with all this taking care of them crap" and then later, when i got oldder, i don't even want to get married for a number of year. Marrige is overated i told myself. I don't need a piece of paper to validate my love.

I was "pro-choice" as well, i believed the mother should have the right to decide what to do with her unborn child, after all it's her body. But more and more i think being able to have a relationship with another human being is just miraculous. The process of an egg from production to being fertilzed and go through the all development with all the precision and accuracy in my body, then to birth is just inexplicable ! even today, with all these high tech shit we have, we can not replace that process in tubes and machines. Imagine what a great great journey it is! If you belive in destiny, being a mother itself is a destiny that i believe no female should skip if they can help it. Even if you are reproductively challenged, which i worry about that every day, adopt a child... give a family to a needed child. It will change your life, in a good way. Being a mother is naturally naturally a great great job that i think it's gift to women. I treasure it so much. And i am thankful for my mother and her mother and so on.

Snow Sledding!

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I went snow sledding today! it was awesome. We had 8 people and 5 sleds. So we went down the hill at the same time! gee, we were going backwards most of the time!
Thanks to Helmi who organized all this, it was my first time, and it definitely rocked my week! Feel all energized now!
If you've never tried, you better get you butt to Orchard downs, yep the apt complex, they have a reasonable size hill covered with snow!