Motherhood

I wanna be a stay home mom. I have not only once said it to everybody that is somebody to me. 我总会挂在嘴边，the best thing that can happen to me right now is pregnancy. The most concern I have right now is the possibility of infertility. Maybebecause i have not been knocked out yet (not that i was wishing for it), but just the statistic from my past does not necessarily work in my advantage.

I have a confession to make - I am not a safty girl, never have been. The fact that teenage preganency has never hit my harbor is a miracle and a puzzle to me. 夜路走多了，总会遇到鬼吧！

I don't think i can be a completed woman without motherhood. It will be the big empty black hold in life, and i'll try to fill it up with as much stuff as i can. but the hole in my heart and my life will never be filled with the wrong thing. All the worldly things i can think of can only sustain temporary relieve.

That is my soul purpose. I know for certain, it will be that one thing everybody search for-across the globe-to hopefully save the regret and emptiness in your heart when you are laying in your deathbed. Whatever may your hole be, you better fill it before that moment comes. I have never felt so sure about anything like this one, I will be a mother. I long to be a complete woman with no regret and no return.